As the year ages towards Autumn I've come to realize what 2014 has come to be about for me. It's about digging up old dreams that have been lost along the way for whatever reason and breathing new life into them while keeping other dreams alive that are in waiting. It's a little overwhelming to say the least.
One dream was to paint abstracts and sell them. Another dream that got lost in the ruff was teaching bellydance and developing my skills in American Tribal Style. The third was teaching yoga and belly dance again. The fourth which I am holding onto which has suffered loss over the past year is spinning wool. The fifth is one of the very oldest dreams I've had which is to develop as a vocalist and guitar player to one day make my own music and perform with a band. I never really let go of any of them but they did get a little buried through the years. It does happen to the best of us.
Everyday I take time to make these a priority and all of them take time. Some days not all of them get time. Spinning wool won't happen until I can afford myself the spinning wheel on my wishlist. But it's on my mind as a priority. The biggest challenge is time managing all of them into my life and not being overwhelmed by the aspects of cost and marketing. I just keep telling myself one thing at a time and I tell myself to have "tunnel vision" while I am doing anything. That all that exists in that moment is me and whatever I'm doing. I also have been playing around with writing out schedules for myself to make sure time is made to develop my dreams.
A big distraction is beautiful sunny days and wanting to spend time outside. There have been plenty of sunny days where I stayed inside to practice but sunny days beckon me away from introverted practice. So I actually like it when it rains.
Anyway, you might try to choose your dreams but they choose you. And they will overwhelm you. Though you know that they all take stupendous amounts of time and energy they still call you. If you listen closely how can you say no? You surrender and say "I will build this."
And so mote it be.
Stay tuned for pictures of my upcoming abstract series!
